IS IT JUST ME?

I guess it was never meant to be. I only got with you cos I thought it would help me get over him. Then I started liking you and you helped me forget him but now you’re doing exactly what he did to me. Maybe a little different but more or less the same. It’s like déjà-vu. Why is this happening again? Wasn’t once enough? Maybe it’s just me.. Something about me that makes this happen.. What am I doing wrong? I guess I made the same mistake twice. I shouldn’t have agreed too fast. I should’ve played hard to get. I thought I knew that was the mistake I made with the first one but I did it again. Why did I say yes? Why did I make it so easy? I never make it easy. These are the first two I made so easy and this is what happens. Now I know that those words were just lies. How could I have been so stupid? How do u do this? How come I keep thinking of you but you don’t seem to care. I had to text you first the past two days. You didn’t even reply the first one. How can I trust you. Everything you say or said feels like a lie to me. I’m no good at expressing my feeling out but writing is a good way for me. I like writing it’s my way of letting go but sometimes even tough I write so much, I still cant let go. It still gets to me.. It’s still in me. But it definitely helps a lot.